Musings on the Scorpio New Moon

Welcome to the Scorpio new moon!

A couple years ago I was fortunate enough to scuba dive in the Galapagos. Sensing my super keen love of diving and being the only diver, the (very experienced) local instructor said that he would take me to an underwater cave that he had just discovered if I was open to it... A combination of sheer terror and sheer excitement of what lay underneath made me say yes.

I can feel claustrophic in certain situations, so when he showed me the 4-foot wide hole that we had to drop down through, making sure to stay completely still so we didn't mess up our equipment it was that narrow, I was fucking terrified. Being trapped underwater in a hole is what my nightmares are made of. I wasn't sure if I could do it, I didn't want to do it. And yet something inside me just gently nudged me along telling me I'd be ok.

And so I dropped. Down and down and down I went, sinking deeper into darkness as I fumbled for a flashlight. It was terrifying. Feeling like I had made the worst decision as I plunged further into darkness, I eventually started to see the faintest light below me. It was coming to an end! I was reaching the bottom. As I went from vertical to horizontal still in this tiny passageway, I calmed my breathing knowing, trusting, that something was about to change... only for the tunnel to open up into one of the most beautiful, magical underwater experiences I've ever had.

I felt as if I had stumbled across a magic land few had ever been (which was actually true!), teaming with multicoloured fishes, algies and a secret world truly beyond words. With my fear and claustrophobia almost taking me down, I had reached the treasure chest at the end of the dark, unknown tunnel. Not only was it breathtaking beyond words, but the strength and courage I felt inside for literally diving into my fears was paramount.

And that, to me, is one of Scorpio's most powerful gifts and reminders. Plunging into the depths, into the darkness of ourselves, our psyches. Not knowing what lies on the other side, if you're strong enough to make it, but a small, gentle voice telling you to go on. Go forward. Because what lies beyond what you can see is more than you could ever fathom.

So if you are instinctively feeling this, experiencing this, read on for a love letter from Persephone, Queen of the Underworld (Scorpio's domain). Let her be that guiding voice you may need right now if whether by choice or by force, you are entering your own personal depths.

Much love,

Xx Faye

Dearest, You've made it. You're here.

Welcome to the depths.

Let me show you around my world, my domain. What lies beneath your topside world.

Don't worry, I know it's unfamiliar to you. That your eyes haven't fully adjusted to the darkness yet, the depths of where we are.

But I'm here to guide you through these unfamiliar terrains.

I can't remember if this is your first or fiftieth visit to me all the way down here, where few have thought to venture.

Where tall tales and 'keep out' lore have made people fear my land.

Fear me.

And yet I sit here waiting, hoping to be able to share the gifts and wealth that lay here.

See that still dark pool of water over there?

I know, you can barely tell it's water it's so fixed in place. A sheet of black ice almost.

Does it terrify you to peer into it? To not know how far down it actually goes? That it seems endless, limitless.

To imagine tumbling down encased in blackness, wondering when this will ever end.

Will it ever end?

Trust me, you are not the first to fear these depths. Feel trepidation even venturing close to its edges. Very few are willing to let go completely into the vast, endless unknown.

Why else do you think I remain so hidden, so elusive from most discourse?

You think it's easy to stare into the neverending blackness? Where the depths of your fears, your regrets, your shame lies?

Ha!

But that's why I'm showing you around. To remind you that you are not alone when staring into the abyss.

Staring into the depths of yourself. Your psyche.

The places you keep hidden, protected from others. The secrets you keep, the desires you hold.

The secret place within you that makes you, you.

I know it may seem easier to stay in your topside world always, to stay in the light and sunshine.

But I want to awaken that part of you that longs for the depths, for the darkness.

That knows that only in the dark, damp fertile soil of the earth do seeds receive the nutrients they require to spring forth, to burst through into life and light.

That knows that all too often your topside world shuns the dark, keeps it associated with all things 'scary', 'forbidden', 'bad' or 'maleficent', encouraging you to disown parts of yourself in the process.

That leads you to wrap yourself in shame for having a negative, dark or fearful thought.

And spiral down and down you go.

But I want to remind you what does lie on the other side of that seemingly endless pool of dark water, of nothingness.

That this is the world of wealth.

Where do you think the jewels and crystals you humans value so deeply come from?

The depths.
That precious diamond that sparkles and reflects the light in a kaleidoscope of ways, drawing your eyes to it beyond your control... that came from the depths.

From me.

From the deep darkness and the intense pressure that accompanies that, a diamond was born.

Transformed.

And so are you.

That when it feels as if you're at your pressure point, that it is too intense to go into those parts of yourself that feel like the great abyss that you may never come back from, I promise you that you are not alone there.

If you are able to travel into those recesses of yourself, I am waiting there with a treasure chest overflowing with what you most deeply desire.

But I make you work for it, I know.

I make you sit in the darkness, alone with your thoughts and fears before I transform you. It is your initiation ceremony.

But transform you, I will.

Renew you, I will.

Return you to the topside world, I will.

So as you go inwardly, instinctively, know that this isn't for the faint of heart. Know that it can feel intense beyond words.

But know that there is no way you won't be transformed. Reborn.

That what you release in the depths stays there, becomes the fertile soil of your life, your soul.

To make you sparkle like the jewel that you are.

You're strong enough to enter my world. Our world. Never forget that.

I'm waiting for you, whenever you feel ready to come meet me. You'll hear the deep call within you when it's time.

Love,

Persephone