Musings on the Aquarius New Moon

You're probably wondering what this amazing meme has to do with anything, other than making you want to rewatch Mean Girls (you're welcome). But when I was musing about this moon and what it means to me, what it means astrologically, and how I can combine the two, I burst out laughing as this scene popped into my mind. It summed up this new moon perfectly to me - Aquarius is the sign of the visionary. Of what a better world could look like, personally and collectively. It asks us to allow any vision, no matter how eccentric and off-beat, to be honoured with our attention. And hope. These dreams and visions may not make sense to others around you, but as long as they fill you up with excitement and joy, you've nailed it.

This new moon in Aquarius is asking us to keep our dreams, our visions alive. Not just alive, but thriving. These last weeks (months? years?) have been demanding of us in various ways. Changes and the inevitable chaos they bring seem to be the name of the game these days. Challenging us, stretching us beyond what we previously thought we were capable of. And when our world sometimes feels as if it's imploding, only being able to live moment to moment to keep our heads above water, it can be easy to let our dreams take the back seat. We're in survival mode. Who has time for cakes full of rainbows? 

But this is precisely when we need them the most. 

When I was dealing with my neck injury this summer, I was in tears one day not because of the pain, but because for the life of me I couldn't think of what my dreams for the future were. I had no idea what I wanted, what would bring a spark of joy to me. When I attempted to think about the future, there was just a big, grey nothing in front of me. And it left me feeling so unbearably alone it honestly terrified me. Only months later, as I began to regain my sense of self, did my dreams return. They filled me up and held me like a dear friend. They provided the energy to start making small but significant changes in my life. Only then did I fully understand the power that our dream and visions hold. I had to lose them completely before I realized how much I needed them. 

So! What would it be like to allow yourself to dream wildly over the next couple of days? Without constraints or judgements on what may or may not be possible. Leave the specifics to future you. Present you just needs to know that something exists on the other side of today.  

These dreams may be as small (and worthy!) as not having any holes in socks one day (ahem, mine) to being the world leader in ~ fill in the awesomeness of who you are ~ . There can be an element of intensity to this new moon - of passion, or disruption. So as always, be gentle with yourself. You might read this and have a list of ten dreams and the drive and passion to know that nothing can stop you from accomplishing them. Or you might feel like you're so scattered your body and mind are buzzing, completely unable to sit with a thought, feeling, dream, long enough to even know what it is. Both are perfect. Both are the name of the astrological game. 

The last piece to all this dreamy dreaming returns to another central piece of what Aquarius stands for. Aquarius is all about collaborating - the collective, groups, friends. When I started writing this piece, I starting thinking about how often we actually keep our dreams to ourselves. I don't know about you, but for many years I wouldn't dream of sharing my, well, dreams! Nothing made me feel more vulnerable than speaking aloud to something that I really wanted, but maybe wouldn't get. Wouldn't be able to accomplish. If I told my friends and family my dreams, and they didn't come true, well then everyone would know I had failed. Right? 

Wrong! Fuck that. Much of my journey this last year has been about finding strength and power in vulnerability. I've slowly come to realize that there are few things that make me feel as vulnerable as actually admitting what I want. To myself is fucking challenging, but to others?! Come on now. 

But this is my dream for this new moon. That we start unabashedly talking about our dreams to each other, with each other, for each other. To inspire each other by talking about our hopes and visions for our future selves. No matter how scary that might be. No matter how vulnerable we may feel. No matter how 'unrealistic' these dreams might seem. Because you never know who you might speak these words to, who might be a piece, or know someone who could be a piece, in your dream puzzle. And I guarantee you, if you're as lucky as I am to have the best fucking friends and family (read - YOU!), you will only be heard with excitement, encouragement and support. Give me, and others, the chance to support you. Pleeeease! Don't make me start to beg. 

I loved this simple yet powerful reminder from a fellow astrologer - 

"We have to have dreams for them to come true." 

Oh and just in case you forgot - you are literally the greatest person alive and I fucking love you and my life is what it is because you are in it 

Xx Faye